Get out of the bubble

I know. I know. I finished the world stupdkidest subject I'm so fucking happy. ONE PAPER TO GO. ET's having a rough day I don't think I should annoy him. But I really do want to. Cries. The temptation.

Today I went out to get supper for myself. I was sad. Haih. I'm getting frustrated about my life. Ever since having to know moon's friends. ET and Loong squad... I got slightly wilder. Yes, just slightly. I have to admit. It conflicts myself alot when I was with my ex. Since he's antisocial, and I wanted to keep him companied... So I isolated myself for him. What are those sacrifices for. Fucks sake. I remember telling him, wood. I've given up this, this, that. You gotta know okay, that I only have you. Hah. Shame. What did I tell him that for. Ungrateful piece of idiot. Why did I got so emotional, even. Telling him that I miss ET squad this much but he never sincerely told me to go spend some time with my old friends. Pft. Forget it!!!

I'm done. It's a new sem from June onwards. I'm gonna be a new person. Even shandy has a more exciting life despite her being slower. I pity her, actually. Poor thing getting tortured by this guy. Best decision she made is to go to UK and leave all this shit behind. Next sem I'm gonna try getting to the team. Maybe joining xwen when there are events. Her friends seems fun. Maybe. Just maybe we could be closer a little. Maybe I could ask cookie out. He's just one fucking block away. Omg to think of that I should've borrowed his bike to get supper just now ish. Such stupid.

Anyway, just saying. I'm not the only one feeling alone, actually. I know. Angel's a wild girl. Yy's the isolated one. She saw my snap on insta stories abt supper. And she told me, she used to ask wendy out for pizza at night. Sounds cool. Maybe we have a team lonely. If we're gonna be lonely why not be lonely together so we can share our sorrows.

I can have friends. Maybe. Just one snap, she said, jom. Let's go places together and fuck hostel. Yeah. Didn't even need to be that emotional. Antisocial is a fucking torture, especially when you have no one to social with. But you actually have. We just needa be patience, I guess.