Sometimes, the voices are coming back. It's now saying: you asked for it. You made your choice, now, what right do you have to feel awful ?

To answer that.. do I have rights to feel awful ? I'm supposed to be happier from walking away. Isn't it ? Why did I break up with him? Something ET kept asking me.

I can't properly answer him. I can't answer it. Because... We have seriously serious communication problems and it's completely hopeless? Because whenever I try to talk to him he takes the worse assumption ending up giving awful replies ? Because there are misunderstandings that are necessarily inevitable? Because.. he doesn't love me anymore?

He doesn't love me anymore. That's all I can say. At least that's how I feel.

So to answer the voices. Do I have any right to feel awful? Yes. I do have. I chose to walk away, because I realized this ugly fact. Because. Just because.

Why did I broke up with him?
I drove all the way to scottgarden, passing by those foreign scary guys, scary streets just to get to him. Just to have a little bit of company from somebody I think cares for me as a little friend.
I think, there's not much you can guess.

It kills me to death doing that. Still, I did it.
What else could be the reason?