I have to start living.

I know where my friends are. They're everywhere, actually. It makes me.. able to go anywhere without feeling alone. It's it good? Pineapple might be at sg, along with mic, gold, the rest, and ET too, soon. I can actually go there too. Since there has better developed biotech career opportunities. It's closest to Malaysia. It's still near, it's home. I don't have to feel alone. I don't have to be alone. All I have to do is speak up, my friends will listen. I don't have to be sad that they can't help me. ET can't help me too, he just wakes me. No one can help me so I gotta learn to help myself.

I'll have to ace chem. Ace math, ace mgt and genetic. I'll have to go for Dean's list, President's list. I'll have to get very good grades. And I'll find my way. I might not get expected good grades, but I can have the attitude. I can have a good attitude. Wood is gone. Gone for good. I'm mean enough to myself that I stopped texting him, completely. I've killed the streak, and unfollowed him from fb. I don't wanna delete tho. There is no point.

I want to look at those photos and be able to say that I already let go. These were even harder three years ago. My life mindset aren't gone. He didn't completely brainwash me. I still have my senses. Nothing lasts forever, and I already accepted it.

Stop crying, get up and study. Socialize, get better network, find a closer version of ET. Find another group of friends I can be with when I'm here in inti. Find, because... I don't have to be alone.