I have an incurable emptiness in me. And to stop that, I think about the things I shouldn't be thinking. It's so fucking annoying.

It's like... Exclude the times I play badminton, I never love life. Never ever. I question why I'm here, there, I question why I took biotech. I question why I'm doing things that make me wanna die. maybe it's normal, who likes assignments?

I'm a greedy person. I want to be social, I want a lot of baddy but I want to sleep, I want to eat, but I want a nice looking body, I want everything, and I also want to get to Presidents list. I want a 4.0, but I want everything that makes me so busy I can't even 4.0. sounds pretty content? Then why do I hate life. I'm being as social as I can, but not really, tbh. I get along with people, but it stays there. No further. This is definitely trust issue.

Friends are scary when you get too close. I can be close with girls, but how do you do that when most people around you are baddy addicts? It's hard to find female baddy addicts like me. They get tired. I get happy. We're different people.

Haaaih I should be doing my assignments. So annoying.