You know it's super normal when the older peeps from the squad showed a lot of concern. It's their age, it's their nature.

But you know it's not normal when they started to ask you out.

All these time you're telling yourself, no more drama during baddy, because the squad must maintain, and that's the most important thing. Even when you have slight feelings for any of them, shut your mouth, maintain the distance, keep thinking that they just wanna fuck.

They just wanna fuck.

The older they are, the higher the desire. Make sure you say no. Do you say no to movies and all that shits?

Jakon was being overly over recently. I liked him, as a friend. He's 26, old not too old, not young. He's mad wild. He's sweet. And that's the thing. When guys are sweet, there is an issue.

What happened to stop trusting?
Nothing happened. I didn't trust everyone.

Jakon doesn't know my story. He doesn't know about my past. He knew I'm aggressive, unkind. He knew I'm not a happy person. Honestly, everyone knows the outmost layer. I love badminton, and I do anything for badminton. Usually they tend to fall for the wrong things. If jakon is after me, what do I do?

He doesn't even know me, how can he be going after me? How do you explain the daily little texts?

I wish I know how to life. Idk how to life. What is life. One shit ends, the other wants to rise? I don't want jakon to become someone I hate. I don't wanna lose the sunday wild lavana team. It's the second team I had.

Remember what happened to ET when I let him in. Never trust. He might seem sweet, he's actually a monster inside. The manipulativeness. That's because ET knew too much. That's because I showed too much. Jakon knows nothing.

Never let them know what road you've been tru to make you you, cuz if they know, they can make you go towards them more easily. That's the most dangerous thing that can happen. Why am I worried? I can't even feel.