Since he's haunting me in bright daylight, there's nothing I can do with the daydreams is it ?

If he ever comes back, will you accept back again?
Again itself already sounds super dumb. Again? I can't answer that question. Something tells me I'll be dumb for him. Something tells me, I'll always be dumb for this one guy. So no way. I wish he stays far far away, somewhere I can never ever see him anymore. I wish he disappears in just my sight.

I don't wanna be reminded that I do miss him. I miss how that feels like. Cuz when he didn't appear, I almost completely forgotten how to reminisce. I don't do that anymore. Actually it's all still there, just placed aside.

Am I actually moving on ? Yeah of course. I think. It'll be more confirmed if he doesn't show up anymore. Even if I'm pretending, which I don't even know. Fake it until you make it, right?

If it wasn't for you, I'd be doing music, somewhere far away.
If it wasn't for you, I'd not have all those shit things that happened.
If it wasn't for you, I'd not have moon, ET squad as friends.
If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have drank and got close with my sister.
If it wasn't for you, many things wouldn't happen.

So thanks for breaking up with me. Thanks for not loving me anymore since three years ago.

You didn't have to come back. You didn't have to phrase it all like that. You can't love anyone, admit it and live with it I guess. I believe that anything between us ended after the first time we broke up, which is precisely three years back.

It's alright tho, we wasted some time together, but it's fine. I wasn't good enough.