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I know that you have my blog link. I don't know how you get it, and I don't know whether you'd be back here to read it. I'm sorry for being harsh in all the posts. I don't care about my wording since no one really read them. Don't worry about your image, cuz only my yip man reads them.

Despite any hate I have left towards you, I'm actually more thankful than anything else. Thank you for trying, for giving us a chance to test out being a lifetime partner. Thank you for being my first, making me learn so so much about how it's like being with someone. I seriously learned.

Thank you for being my coach, you made me me. Everyone's telling me I can play so well, I can be champion, my shots are so nice, blahblah, and you're the only one telling me every single mistake I made, you were teaching me to be a better player, and I play a lot of mixed doubles now, and I played well, thanks to you. You pressure me, you made me so stressful, you're the only one telling me how bad I play, how hopeless I am. Maybe it's how, it's how I improve.

The things that you gave me were the things that you knew how much I need them. You knew what fits me best. You knew what fits my life best. Coaching, motivation, even little things, fitgear, it's now my favorite jersey. My earphones. Little things, but they stay with me so closely, like I can almost feel your presence all the time.

People praised me for knowing how mix doubles footwork, how I should move in every shot. And all I could think of was... You taught me. Remember the mixed doubles competition in Nottingham? My worst game ever. If we join that again, you have no idea how much stronger we'll be as a team. Cuz you'll always be the strongest I know.

We've made mistakes all our lives. I shouldn't blame you for thinking that I was cheating on you. That was my mistake. I made you feel that way. I wasn't good enough. But know that you have your mistakes too. Know that you don't have trust in me, you didn't even want to bring it up for discussion. Communication is always so important, and you neglected that. Remember?

Of course, there's nothing we can do right now. Everything is already done. We've parted forever, we won't meet anymore, I won't find you, you won't find me. Don't blame shandy for telling me the stuff she told. She wasn't invading your privacy,bit involved me. She was a good person. Girls help girls. She knew how shitty you were, but she forgave you. Do you even have the pride to unfriend her? That doesn't sound like you.

Anyway. Pride is a thing. But is it worthy if you hurt people you love just for your pride? People who love you. You're a good person. You were just lost. And it's okay. People will say things. If you did things, how can you expect people to not say things??

Just know that I don't hate you anymore. Maybe you'll be a part of me until I die. Maybe I can't love anyone more than what we had, even tho... Idk if yours was real. Mine was. Know that you'll lose her if you don't trust her like how that happened.

I think it's funny I'm convincing you to trust the girl since I don't even think trust is a thing. Trust is bullshit. Hope you change for good, and stop being shitty for the people in your life. People leave you for reasons, and you gotta think about yourself, not what they did. Who cares about them? It's you. If they're shitty, you learn a lesson. You learn to not be like them, isn't it? Don't blame people, that's gonna make you shitty.
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I'm not Calling you the name I put in the title. It's just for convenience if you decided to scroll my blog. That name, would grab your attention I hope. Don't worry I'm not gonna spread your shit rumors. People are gonna know that yh can play baddy well because of her ex. That's all, I guess.