I remember there was a super long time whenever I wasn't happy, I'd scroll fb, spamming likes and shares. I'd like the videos I didn't even watch. I'd just spam until I see something relatable. It was a damn weird habit. I guess I reduced doing that.

Now it's more towards blog. Blog whenever and wherever. Or mostly, snapchat. There used to be this difference between sc and ig stories. We could put more words in ig stories back then, so if I have long rants abt random shits I could use that. And slightly personal stuff I'd use sc. So some of them said I have crazy rage hahaahaha just cuz they know me better from sc. But now I think both are the same. Just ig stories give better quality photos. And stupid sc starts having the snapshot sound, making me unable to snap silently. I guess that's why I started losing streaks. I can't snap in class.

It's 3am and trust me I didn't want to do this. I had a nap five hours ago and was expecting to wake like four hours ago. My bad. But imma free soul. I remember the times I'd get scolded for taking night naps. It wasn't even from my parents. Who has the right to lecture me? No one. Fuck off.

All is well. I'm just blogging for the sake of blogging. Well, it's late. I don't text people anymore. I mean. Idk. Something's def wrong with me. I'm a little off. I'm always grumpy. I didn't want that. I'm so sorry everyone. I seen people's chats and ignore. Or sometimes I just reply irrelevant shits that hope they just shut up. I'm a little harder to be with already. Cuz anyone can piss me off without doing anything. Just be curious, a little annoying and I'd start being ugh go away.

However, weird that there's few people who remained texting me frequently. And usually when that happens, I'd repel!! ABORT MISSION. What do they want? First thought forever. Are they over thinking? Yes? Don't reply. Yup I'm that mean. Don't even consider what kind of person they are. People will always be evil. They'll appear Nice. It's the scariest when they appear nice, you fall into the trap and die forever. Look at me.

I'm so tired. I have so much things to do and I'm sitting here don't know doing what shit. I just don't wanna get to the main stuff. I wanna badminton, but badminton hurts my arm. Oh my. Know how bad it is right now? It's the worst it's been. My arm's never been this bad. About four days rest and it was like fucking shit when lobbing. My arm can't lift anything anymore. I mean, that specific angle. It has trouble lifting itself, just the damn arm.

Yes I have a choice. I know. So I'd do something now since I'm super busy, and the mph is also super busy. Weekdays will be rest days. Other days, I had it planned. I'm going to run on weekly Wednesdays, I think. Maybe other days too. Maybe do some ab and thigh exercises, I'll just leave my arm to rest a little. Training goes on. I'd tell coach I have an arm issue and I'm fixing on it, so hopefully he trains me without having me stressing on the arm. Maybe we can focus on wrist and footworks. Cuz last time I remember it was completely fine when I stroked with menshoe just using my wrist. Honestly my wrist definitely felt stronger than before. Lobbing with wrist? Definitely stronger. But coach knows my arm issue. Haha. He's the best. I might as well fall in love with coach so that love dies forever. It's not possible tho. A different kind of love. More like admire.

Ok I think I'll try to sleep ffs.