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Salty fish's boy was so annoying. Kept teasing kon and I. But the thing is, I don't wanna accept it. Yes I'll admit, I once felt he had something towards me but then I think it should be reasonable that he might not have that too. Friends can be friendly. I'm friendly, to everyone.

Today I invited nicsman along. Gosh, so long time no see. He said he has a competition coming up. So he was literally crazy. He played singles style when we were actually playing mixed. He knew my positioning logic. So as long as he never lift or lob, I'd be in front. And guess what, I stayed in front the whole time. It's basically equivalent to two vs one. Fucking tiring. I'm actually a little worried. Crazy people will get hurt. Or they succeed. Haha.

Crazy guy. Nicsman is crazy.

So I've made my decision. Last time going for double session. Friends will be friends. If we end, we end. It's just life, we can't be too greedy. We hurt ourselves in the end. So gotta let go. I was an idiot for appreciating people the wrong way. Same goes my ex. Same goes loong squad. It all became toxic. Let's just make sure they're healthy peeps. Or I can say, let's make sure the way I spend time with them are healthy.

I asked sob. Do you think kon likes me? He said, yeah. But he said, maybe not tho. We don't know. He said, he once thought kon likes my sister. Now, me. What. I wish he's just friendly. Like I said, no romance allowed in baddy, cuz baddy squads are more important. Baddy squads stay forever, but love doesn't. Love kills the squad. It happened like... So many times. We should start learning.

Life is fine. I have two more years to work on my champion. Nicsman gives good advices. He said, I'm at this level now. I should start predicting my opponents' next shots. Planning, in each shot. My arm is injured. So maybe it's time to train my wrist to become super strong. Yup it's another way. He's motivation. But still I gotta fix my arm. Too many daily activities affected. Now, each smash, or each lob hurts. Each. Yes. I'm actually a little scared to hit high shots. I'm actually more worried that I might be scared of hitting these high shots, so that even if my arm's recovered, I can't play like how I used to play. It'll be disaster. I'll have to... Idk.

Yes I have a choice. You have a choice too. My arm's like it's broken. Meanwhile, I'll train my stamina, abs, legs. Anything. To win that fucking champion. Heh. I have lust. Yes. It's wrong. But just once, I wanna prove it to myself. To people. I can have zero supporters. But I'll put maximum effort. I'm not hopeless, you're hopeless for thinking someone could be hopeless. I'll live life the best way.