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"I have a friend who broke up with her bf many many times, but they ended up married with a child right now."
What are you gonna think when you hear such stuff? I can only say, your friend is still just 22. If they have the tendency to break so many times, it's not the end yet. Who knows. Even tho, she was hinting me another question, abt whether we still have a chance together. No.

I think my car alignment is off. Moon said, let's see. Yeah it's definitely off.
I'm really bad at cars. Idk what's wrong when something's wrong. But things I've been taught specifically by passionate peeps, that's a different story.

Lowin, do you know why your shots never go to the back? She said, no, why? Because... Imagine throwing a stone. If you wanna throw it far, you gotta move your arm to the back, then launch your shot to the front, isn't it? She said, yeah. And from that moment onwards, she hit, and she hit far. That's a fast learner. Sometimes I think, we all are supposed, and should be able to learn this fast. It's not about talent or what shit. It's how you've been taught. With patience, with passion, you learn fast. And you can even help people to learn fast. We don't have to be rude.

Now you're smiling, but I think, you have the tendency to be super fierce. Of course. I think that applies to us all. But I'm usually not fierce to people outside. They don't have a space in my life, why waste that energy?

Look at her overall shape. She's fit. Broad shoulders, and those thigh. She must be a swimmer. She was observing, then she agreed. The rest of the day we were staring at girls' legs. I said, I wanna be like these girls. Their thighs look like they can smash open a watermelon. She said, it's actually quite cool that we baddy girls have fitter shapes. She said, cham and I both have that. Our legs are bold. Ahahahah. First time getting this comment. Definitely a compliment.

Life is fine. Biotech is fine. I just gotta maintain the heart to learn. That's the attitude people like to hire isn't it ?

Sometimes I think we have different mindset. I don't think the same like my coursemates. Sometimes I don't think they can generate good reports. I arrogantly think that my reports are actually super good. Even tho I never get full marks, but my intro, my discussion, those important parts always score. I think I have the logic my lecturers are looking for. It's what they want. I get what they want. But my coursemates don't. Sometimes I don't know what they don't know. They just can't start their work without asking weird questions. I'm not saying the ipoh girls. It's the rest. At our senior batch, I think the smartest group should be boey and yen. Sometimes I look at what they do, I don't get the point. Lecturers want us to comment on our friends' work. The point? I don't think they want us to say "wow so informative, good job friend I've learned alot." Wtf was that? Pointless dumb shit. But the sheep did that. It's what they do, right ? Idk but I really can't do that kind of stuff. If I don't agree to something, I don't study. I give up on that part.

What is the cause of Antibiotic resistance? Poor hygiene, poor infection control, misuse of antibiotics, mutation. What is the cause? I repeat. They say, all. But I don't think that's the case. The cause of if we're talking abt antibiotic resistance, of course we're talking bout a specific type of bacteria which its original strain cannot tolerate any of that antibiotic. So why resistance? Cuz mutation. That's the answer isn't it. Poor hygiene and infection control are basically the same, factors that contribute to the spread, not the cause. They don't agree but they can't argue their point.

Sometimes I feel like the more I life, the more I start to be confident. I argue instead of listen and shut up while faintly knowing it doesn't seem right. I argue with facts, with proofs. Unsure? Don't agree? Ask. Find answers. Research. Honestly, this doesn't sound like me at all.

I used to be very quiet when it comes to these. Now, I think I raise my arm more than five times per week. Because I dare to speak up. It's not me. Or something's changing. I've been like this for some time isn't it? Sometimes I think I have too much of attitude. I'd gladly sleep or do unexpected things in front of the lecturers. I think I'm not very normal. I'm going mad. Gosh. I can't recognize myself. Since when did I care about my grades that much ? All my life I only care abt my ex and badminton. Now, my grades. Ahahahaha. Okay. Probably the reason I changed.