Fuck blogger.

He might be a good friend. But not a good bf. He's living here in inti for intern, which explains why I bump into him so frequently. Which is why he came to see me compete. Which is why he texted me a little. These all have reasons, and it's because: convenience.

Don't be overconfident yh. He's not having second thoughts. He's just shitty person who has no sense of directions. He doesn't know that what he's doing, is inappropriate. He never thought about his gf when he asked me out for baddy. He never thought about her when he asked me out for dinner. If you mind, do you think she wouldn't? He's part ass part idiot. More towards idiot. Being so dumb makes him an ass.

I told him to join us instead.
It's for the last time anyway.

I told menshoe, he might join. And I'm a little scared. I was trying to tell him not to join, since his arm is in a worse shape than mine. But he doesn't care.
It's for the last time anyway, he said.

I told menshoe. Please tell the squad to take care of him. He thinks his arm can't be saved, so he'd get himself hurt even more, he'd play fully without being careful, and he'd hurt himself. And I don't want that to happen.

I hate that I care so much, menshoe was like "Aw, I'm so happy that I'm your friend." Well, he's my favorite person afterall. Who'd want to see their fav person suffer? His negative mindset is incurable. I couldn't help him back then, his current girl doesn't seem to help too.

I'm honestly scared of seeing him. Maybe I texted him a little more, so I'm less affected already. But seeing him is a different story. It requires looking at his face. Imagine all the memories. Even his back affected me. What can happen? It's almost finals. Is this even appropriate?

It's for the last time anyway. If he appears, it's final. After this week, he's no longer here. And there won't be chances bumping into each other. No chances to trigger him, so he'd completely stop texting me. That would be great. It'll be like a last experiment for me. Hypothesis: To study the ability of yh to be unaffected by her ex. Conclusion? Im scared.

But I guess I still want to have a proper look at him. Like.. is he really happier now? Then I'd know, whether it was a good decision on breaking up.