I'm actually enjoying it all.
I'm getting much close to the committees from inti BC. It's funny how menshoe was the only one graduating soon, stepping down from secretary but I have zero intention of getting her post. Looks like it cuz why else would peeps stick to committees? Maybe I was wrong. I was wrong. I remember the way I assumed all the juniors just want to please us AJKs so they'd please us for benefits. Maybe some of them were like how I am rn. Purely just wanted to make friends. Of course I wouldn't take her post. It's secretary. My worst nightmare. Sworn I'm done with it.
Recently I'm realizing that I'm more capable of more than I imagined. All my life, I've been through a rollercoaster change in lifestyle, personalities and capabilities. I went from a super inactive skinny shit person who doesn't exercise, to a badminton addict who could fuck my arm up just because, I enjoy everything. I went from a good girl who only go to malls, to someone who actually binge drank, went to pubs and clubs, smoked, vaped, shisha-ed and came back at latest 5am, then quit everything. I went from socially not so okay to... I guess I'm improving on that because of how straightforward I am, more than I used to be. And usually, I'm so straightforward people enjoyed that. Lol. It's like, we don't need any barrier, we can be truthful. I went from a person with all subjects with the average of 50++ over 100, to someone consistently having GPA of above 3.5. Know how I study? I make notes, tiny notes, up to the tested chapters. As long as I finish the notes, I'll be prepared for the test even if I didn't memorize them madly. I organize, I write, I remember, and revise. And usually, I finish doing notes the day before the test, which is sooooo fucking dangerous cuz that's freaking last minute af. But the outcome was oddly satisfying. I have the tendency to badminton today, and test tomorrow.
I think I'm completely mad.
I honestly really care about my grades. I also care about having fun. Hehe. Both are important! Equally. How can we be a freaking nerd all day? I'm mad.
I really dk what's gonna happen when menshoe's gone. She's the only girl in among the committees. I talk to girls much much more. Idk what are boys. Mostly liars? I don't wanna believe they're those. I'm scared. So I'd talk a lot to girls. I guess I'm used to this. But the committees, we're getting closer. Loong squad is.... gone. Last week, mic actually invited me to baddy. I said no, due to exam which is actually true, but yeah. My arm.. which means, loongs baddy squad still treats me as a friend. But.. we're not exactly friends anymore. We all know that. It's gone when "it" happened.
I kinda told them why I joined the club late. I wanted squads to play. I didn't want to squeeze in the crowds. So I asked smtg like... Whether it's okay to TRAIN with the team. Because I just wanted to play more, hopefully not in the club cuz damn, it's overcrowded. Turned out the team doesn't train. Lol. I end up joining the club. And they said, it's easy to find a squad. Yeah. I found you guys. Target achieved.
They have the tendency to sit there and talk for hours. I remember, last time we did this was with loong, ET, pan. All, gone. But now this, was actually healthier. They were quite shocked hearing how I've been a party animal. Er. Heh. Trying new things is necessary right? We all have that phase. We will have that phase.
Gab broke up with his girl. He's acting a little like voon. Oh god. Please. I'm getting judgemental again. Sorry. There are certain people that I personally think they're annoying. And to these peeps, I'd shoot them without filtering, as long as they can take it. Voon was one. Frog was one. Moon too. Heh. I'm mean. But yeah. This is me. But I didn't shoot Gab. He's too down recently. Chicken too, I shot him a little, then decided to use the soft way as a rational listener. Haha.
Recently I think I'm being too straightforward I scare myself. It's a bit dangerous. But I'm so tired of drama. Fuck them all. I will accept how the flow goes. I'll work hard for what I want to achieve, and be happy. If my ex comes back with a good intention without really actually eating my life up, I will treat him the same. No harsh conversations, just chill ones. Since we broke up, I achieved the peace we needed. So why not continue that peace? That was my original intention anyway, what can I lose?
I'll be fine.
It's cool how forever win can be so humble, while menshoe was actually scared of him for some time. Soya I thought he's a rough guy. But turned out he can be really sweet. Frog's still annoying. Jon snow, I'm still not sure yet. Haha. Ish. Committee squad. Great peeps. I like them. Forever win was like.. the best observer. I don't think he looked fierce, but he doesn't look that friendly either. Cuz some peeps will be cool. That's this guy. Very good at analyzing all situations, but too shy! It would be helpful if we have him to advice us during comps. He told me I actually could beat the champ for singles during inti close. Thanks for that confident haha. Yeah. I thought so. Actually they all said that. It's okay I guess. I'm happy already. Lol. Vhooi might be the next secretary. Another girl with a very strong personality. I actually thought she was a little bit hard to be with cuz that's overly straightforward. I like being straightforward but sometimes... I see the true colours of some peeps, doesn't mean I'd like all of those. Maybe peeps think about me the same way. Not an easygoing person, why else would I get played by two guys right? Too fun isn't it.
Gonna work hard to recover. I like how nilai U peeps were so friendly with us. He told us that we could play together sometimes, we're so close to each other, but lack interaction! True. These are the real passionate peeps. I like them. I don't even know their names lol. Anyway friendly match with them really makes me appreciate inti. Inti has better players, better PHONE RECEPTION, better chance of baddy, better hostel. Nilai U is the real jungle. Holy cow you can't even reach anywhere walking out from the u. It'd be like walking in the Middle of the road surrounded by trees. Remote shit.
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