Msm

Snow is an emo kid, but he's a good kid.
Sushi said, when you choose a man, you gotta see how he treats his mom.
Bread said he found new wifi for snow.
I've been abandoning sharkzz, I'm sorry.

I feel like I'm getting stronger in the game. I'll be so shocking, soon. I'm getting my mythic soon. I just have to max two unqiues. Doing ed with snow at midnight has become a daily thing at 12am sharp. We'd converse tru tele, then go ed runs for each chars. It started from the day I tilted from failing. Then he sometimes didn't hit to make sure I succeed. Thoughtful af.

Daily conversation, what do you expect? Definitely a friendship beginning. I've discovered some quite personal parts of his life. I didn't expect that at all since he was a little mysterious. But yeah he opened up.

Gosh my heart.
It doesn't feel good knowing his suffers. As usual, I'll be the ranting platform, I offered. Glad to know that I can help in a way.

Nice knowing the real snow.
Sensi boi.
Feels like he just need real friends to be there for him. Gosh all the broken pieces. Life will be hard.

I was quite tilt. I actually regret being like that. Well, what to do? I'm a bishop. My main is bishop. I have super low damage and that's my nature. That's why maybe, I'm suited to do ed with Nature?

I had six tickets. So I asked if anyone could help me. They said, okay. But because of them being overpowered, or... because of my damage being too fucking low, I failed twice. I swear I was tilt as fuck. I bought so many ed tix to up my eqs, so many. Just to up. I just wanna clear them faster, and this is what I get. So tired. F2p bishop, is there another way out? I guess quitting the game is the only way out. Am I gonna quit? Yes I am. So fucked up. This game is fucked. I used to convince myself, they have stronger weapons. Once I reach that level, I'll be strong. But no. My weapon is almost max. And this is how much I can kill? This is a nexon rant post.

The guildies be like,,, chill. Calm. I know I was scolding non stop, most words turned to ***** as nexon loves to censor our honest opinions, how useless it is cuz we all know what it means. Fuck will be ***k. Pointless. Tired.

Snow offered to duo with me. Honestly he's a nice guy. And he's actually good looking. HAHA. Ignore me. The thing is, he deals with a lot of shit too, I can tell. And look at that determination to be positive. That's something I gotta learn from him. I actually learned so much from him. A lot. He let me rant and try to chill me to the point where I hate myself for being so upset.

I enjoy being f2p. F2p will have their ways. And we will make it too, much stronger than the whales that leech and pay. They all offered me to pm them if I have questions. HAHA. It was funny.

Onigiri has the sweetest interactions. Not even kidding. 

I like that I'm a bishop. I really enjoyed.

I remember when I started it as a casual thing, I started it without much throughts. When xiaoboy introduced me into onigiri, I thought, onigiri peeps are crazy, so hyped, so friendly. Mew members come in, old ones mostly stay because the atmosphere is always awesome. But some, left. Those who left the guild still stayed in the chat. Cuz onigirians will always welcome them back.

I started as a suckish bishop with unique weapon, not even full uniques, but they accepted me. I had an epic cape. It was really shitty. First time I joined them hzak was the second time I ever joined zak. I died and died. So much, I didn't know I could heal, I didn't know my skills could be that useful, I didn't know how to use my skills. One day, someone told me. I found out.

I learned to heal. Learned what the guild needs. So I grind. Up my gear. Woah crazy. Can you believe it? As as f2p, I'm a proud one. I know, I can't be like sn0w. I'm not as good he is. But I know, my progress is real fast. I got three legends in a month, about to get another one. How awesome is that?

I kinda like the guild. It's soul food. It's necessity. Quite disappointed that my fam wouldn't let me go to guild meet. But I'll succeed one day. Pineapple told me to go too. I'd go fot them all.

Awesome peeps.
Arya's heart has been with onigiri ever since Nov 29.

Today I went baddy, despite knowing ET would show up. I kinda knew who'd show up without asking. Time flies, things change. People come and go. Nothing to expect.

So how did it went ? Great I guess. I've seen everyone I missed. Loong, crisp, mic, pan, pooh. Doc wasn't there. ET was there. He became uglier. Sorry not sorry. He thinks he's a korean oppa? That kind of hair with a baymax body. Haha. Hilarious. I'd throw up.

It went smooth. Pooh was still cute ish. Haha. She brought a guy. SkII. Pan brought a guy too, idk what name, ex state. I played well for a handicap. I talked to everyone I guess. Except ET. Didn't even went near him. The nearest distance was across the court. I can't partner with him, I'd feel disgusted. I think they felt it. Cuz I chose to stand next to Loong when we would obviously overpower them. Not something I would usually do. What to do? Haha.

I'm pretty sure Loong knows something. My usual routine would be happily greeting ET. But this day, I didn't. I didn't look at him. Too ugly. But all is well. Baddy was still pretty awesome with them. Loong getting fat I think. Pooh too. Haha. Pan was still sly sly. That evil smile, the best. Haha. Mics sooo skinny, his drops kill me all the time.

Enjoyable stuff, will that happen again?

Idk what's with me. But I just wanna scold you.

Seems like you can't take the pressure in sg huh? At the end still crying running back to daddy.

Sorry I don't know the full story. But well, when it comes to you, there's no harm assuming the worst. Cuz you're the worst.

I can see how Cinnamon moves on easily. You're not a lovable creature. Idk what are you. But I'm pretty sure, you're a piece of shit disguised with healthy wrapper.

I can see how I made a decision to stop all these nonsense, then do it with no regrets. I can see why I was never broken by the fact we ended.

I always thought you'd stay at sg so I'd never see you here anymore. Seems like there's still a risk, cuz you're a coward. An asshole. A fucktard. I know sg girls are stronger compared to guys. They pace faster. It wasn't a very fair game, but I'm pretty sure msia boys pace the same, but you must be the one left behind. That's why you came back. You don't wanna show that you're a loser.

Guess what you'll never find a spouse. You might manipulate one into your life. But guess what, that's just the result of your shit. Manipulate one, and at the end of your life, you'd never be able to lie to yourself, that ain't love. That's just you loving yourself.

I've dated two guys.
One complete idiot who doesn't know how to live in the presence,
Another one who only loves to fuck, he should just get a fucking sex toy and stay like that forever.

I don't hate the first one anymore. But I can barely stand him. Too much negativity, and doesn't accept help, doesn't appreciate. You can't love someone who doesn't love himself.

The second one, everytime I think of his face I wanna pull his head out of his neck, that would be me doing the world a favor.

Maybe they both had done shitty things. Maybe they regret their decisions, maybe they changed. But that's sufficient to tell me that I'm done with relationships, FOR LIFE.

Look at me being free and happy.
I have nicsman and ginger. They cute. But they always speak canto, making my life a little hard, but still they're friends you can keep. 
I have onigiri, xiaoboy, snow. The mad gen gap which shows no gap.
I have the ipoh girls.
I have my food friends, moon, pinapple, yip man, arrogant. These are for life, man.
I have inti bc squad. Forever win, jon snow. Menshoe.

Wanna badminton?
I'm not free, sorry.

I guess from now on that'll be my only reply.
I'm sorry mic. I'm sorry loong, crisp.
Your bro failed me. I don't mind being the heartless one, if that's how it seems like to all of you. I don't need reputation. Your good friend would insist that he never did such stuff. And I'm not a friendship breaker.

I leave peacefully, you continue your show.

You don't deserve this group of peeps tho. Just saying.

Snow

Would you feel a little crazy when you've treated someone like a senior, asking questions and all, then... When you say "I'll be back to annoy you with more questions." And he replies "Yay can't wait."

I thought he was cute.

I mean. And all the tips, they were pretty sincere. I was about to wonder, why don't I just google the answers? Cuz he's seriously nice. Those answers are more than what google gives. Those are personal experiences.

Snow, snow. Why are you with bread? F2ps belong together. HAHAHA jk.

I hope he never gets bored of msm. I'd never get bored too I guess. Spent so much time on it. It's blood and sweat.

My cousie said, Onigiri's gonna be a part of my life. Haha he's right. I love onigiri. It's the best thing rhat happened to me last year.

Don't get it wrong. It's not like I'm falling for a person from a game. I'm not wade. Haha. Just... I find him really nice, to be teaching me stuff so generously without being judgemental, without making me feel dumb for not knowing them already.

It's just a process a crazy girl becomes slightly more gamer.

He prolly doesn't remember my real name. Hmmmmm. I know our topics revolve around msm. But... It's cool how it extends beyond that all the time, and. It was quite comfortable.

Maybe I'm just like artemis. Just artemis is waaay cooler. And I'm more like a nerd. Life... I wonder if he'd recognize me if I add him in social media. HAHAH.